Observations @ Work

Few weeks at work, I'm starting to understand myself more.. For one I hate being slow to put my knowledge and insights out at work I often feel bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all and people call me out on it. Sometimes being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be. I hardly can stand watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally. Everyone says I never forget injuries or injustices; fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger